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Sunday, December 19, 2010


surrounded by warmth as you cradle me through
I breathe in your love
I devour your comfort as you so unselfishly extend to me in your hand
Your energy comes and swallows me as I move my arms above my head
You stretch my lungs as I breathe in the light push my stomach in as I breathe out the darkness
You caress my back muscles as I relax like a cow and hiss like a cat
You pull my bottom up and back as I bow down like a dog
open the hamstrings stretch them back pull my heals down to the ground making me feel solid against the earth
I can feel the rich soil under my feet soothing them
I can see and smell the jasmine growing up around them
grounding them
as the jasmine grows the scent relaxes me sending me deeper into the pose relaxing and stretching first my lower back
then it ascends slowly up each vertebrae stretching releasing
I have entered the world of meditation and my mind is unwilling to leave
I am surrounded
the beautiful flowers the lush grass the hot spring asking me to enter has completely enveloped me
the purifying light has surrounded me filling me with love and wisdom
guiding me as I stand like a mountain I then salute you my beautiful sun as you shine brightly upon my face giving me radiance giving glowing warmth
I lift my arms to welcome you then bow down to show my love for you
as I step my foot back I show you that I will become a warrior for you as you give me strength and make me firm
I then sit easily and ask for what I need I tell you all the love I will spread
I intend to make someone happy  and I will give them the light that you so graciously bestowed upon me and they will come to you
then they will spread the light and we will be the light
I bow to you graciously lovingly

Thursday, December 16, 2010

theft of a broken heart

stolen right from under me
even when I tried to hold back
you took my love from me stole my heart right out of my chest
I never said you could have it but then I don't know if I want it back
I like the way it feels when you gently hold it
but I'm afraid you might drop it so give it back!
I want it to be safe within my realms
I keep running from you and you pull me back
I love it when you love me but I'm afraid of the pain when it ends
you will never understand this you will never know
you don't know the shoes I've walked in nor the weight of my burdens
but i know you love me and how hard you try to get me too see it
but my eyes stay wide shut
Instead of accepting your love unconditionally I see the flaws as proof of your intent to leave
you can't understand because I don't understand
how do I get past this how do I let you have my love unconditionally
will you tell me everyday that you love me
that you never want me to leave
will you bring me into your arms and hold me so that I will be forever safe
will you steal my heart and lock it away and make sure it doesn't break
what will it take
for you too make sure my heart doesn't break
go back to the beginning
to heal the wound that causes the pain
you see I must let go of the past
you see there isn't just one wound but several
and instead of healing they are all still bleeding
why have they taken so long to heal why are they allowed to continue to cause pain
he stole it when it was innocent and vulnerable before the walls were built
the original cause of pain
to break free of pain is to break free of him
and take back what he so wickedly stole away
only then can you have it only then can I give it to you
I have stolen back my broken heart
take it give it life keep it safe cherish it
then I won't need the everyday I love you's
and I won't be afraid to give you me unconditionally

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Sometimes the skies are blue
as blue as me
the waves are continuous
as the continuous waves meet with my continuous tears
my anger builds
the anger keeps building redder and redder
with the sun
as it rises

the grass will still grow
and the forgiveness will flow
straight from my soul
my heart you stole
you put it on the coal and left it there
this is rare the part where you left it there

sometimes the moon is white
a white light in the darkness
you had a light
a light that could not be trusted a light that would not last all night
your light diminished
the moon is still not finished
being the white light
in the darkness

the stars
 I thought were ours
but mars was only ours the rest you left
until the death
of the stars that could have been ours
you left

descending while mending
the clouds cushion the fall while bending the pain
for it is insane
the pain

down, down, down
the blue blue sky
the hot red sun
the soft healing clouds
the deep blue sea

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I'm Sorry

What do I say
As I rip your heart out and make a souffle
What do I say
As you bear the pain as it makes you insane
What do I say
You bear the pain that I bore dutifully as I stood by your side and cried
Silently deeply painfully sometimes I died
Now you stand there and look into my eyes
I see the pain you bear
Your pain digs deep and becomes my pain
I want the pain to stop for you so I lick your wounds in turn healing my own
I took a piece of you with me a piece of your heart
I could no longer bear to look at you so i turned and walked away
I couldn't think of what to say
To take the pain away
I could have said I'm sorry but that's just too cliche
As your brown eyes looked into mine I didn't know what to say so I just turned and walked away

Monday, November 22, 2010


My skin never seemed so soft until you touched it
Your fingers are like feathers falling along my body
Trying not to melt away into you
Trying not to love every sensation
Trying to pull away
No I just can't
My breath never became so shallow until i felt your breath 

Like feathers upon my neck
Looking into you is staring into the ocean so deep so dark
A sea of hidden pain hidden emotion
Let the wind take it away let it go
Float back to me light as a feather
Touch me breathe touch me
Burning desire engulfs me
Cooling me down with your eyes you kiss me a sweet kiss goodbye

Saturday, November 13, 2010

The Screams

You can hear them. They are screaming in pain. Begging to be left alone.
There they go chopping chopping chopping, cutting, cutting, cutting.
They won't even stop for a breathe. 
Disconnection has caused silence in their ears, they cannot hear the screams, driven by greed they cannot stop.
Who will save them. For without them there is no breath. There is no beauty. There is no shade. There is no shelter.
Who will stop the chopping, chopping,chopping, the cutting, cutting, cutting.Who will save them.
Watch them bleed, who will stop it, who will patch their wounds.
When they are gone, who will help us breathe the breath of life.
Heal the connection that has been lost.
Listen to the whispers, don't let them become screams.
For their screams will become our screams.