Time

You keep saying it
But I don't feel it
Then another day goes by

You keep saying trust me
When there is no proof of certainty
Then a week goes by

A promise is a promise in my eyes
You can't say you gonna just to compromise
The lyrics play over and over in my head

The broken promises
The illusion of hope
Another day

I can see the door opened wide
Getting closer and closer
Closer with every hour
Every minute
Every second

I can see pain on the greener side
I can feel pain on this side
Which pain is worth it

I still can't decide

I can feel the coldness of the door
I reach it with displeasure and disappointment
I can see behind me
Your standing there
Your back is towards me
Wrapped up not seeing

Slowly my right foot lifts
The outside is cold but welcoming
The inside is cold and lonely

Relief washes over me
I lift my other foot to walk completely out
To abandon the glimmer of hope you gave me
In the same movement you are at the door

I'm snatched back inside
Before I can even breathe
The door is slammed shut

Another promise is made
Another feeling of hope is formed
Another hour minute second goes by

Another day

Another week

I can see the door again
Wide open

Then it starts again

The feeling that your promises will never be fulfilled wash over me

Another second

Another Minute

Another Hour

Another day

Another week

The door to the other side is open
The door to my heart is closed
When there are too many broken promises
You lose the illusion
You lose hope
You lose
Me

Alone in the darkness

I have seen your light

I have seen your darkness

I remember when the light was overwhelmed by darkness

I lost you 

You couldn't see the star I was holding 

I knew it would show you the way

Your back was turned towards me 

I tried to reach around to help you 

You were already to far far away

I turned around and saw the stairs shining in the darkness 

Giving me an escape 

showing me the way out

I turned around to tell you but you were to far gone

Running blindly the other way

Into your own darkness 

Away from my light

Alone I climbed one by one 

They were cold aching my ankles 

Slippery trying to bring back down into the abyss

One by one I climbed

Never looking back 

I could finally see it 

The faint dot of salvation 

The small shiny dot of hope 

I climbed faster

To fast

Slipping 

Falling 

I scraped my knee

I had blood on my hands

I looked back to see if there was help

No one

I'm alone in the darkness

Giving up 

No not an option not a choice

At the bottom the light was gone

But there was still hope

If I kept going I would reach the light 

Even from here

It's so dark I know the light is there

The star shines dimly 

Encouraging me 

I feel the strength I know I can go on 

I pick it up and climb towards hope 

I climb up towards my dreams 

Being alone in the darkness 

There is always hope

The light at the top or end of the tunnel