This one is for you

My heart pounds
Everytime I see you
My heart pounds against my chest
It threatens my rib cage

My heart swells
Everytime I touch you
My heart swells
The painful pleasure

Releasing

Bleeding light and love
The Beauty of it the feeling of it
The purity of it

The connection
Our connection
The energy
Our energy
My energy moves freely
Engulfing you surrounding you
Pulling us closer

Abandoning all forms of resistance
Abandoning all forms of reason
The only thing left is the feeling
The feeling of me loving you

Craving yearning wanting
More of the forbidden
Abandoning all doubt

My heart opens
Letting you in
Only wanting to give love
Only wanting to lift you up

Breaking

Breaking when we part
My heart
Bursting
Shattering all over the earth

Piece by piece
Missing you

Come here
Come up here with your Queen
Your Goddess
Where all things are sweet like honey
Where all things feel like heaven
Where every part of you is accepted

Come

Take the love
Accept the love
Breathe it into your soul

Abandon the darkness
There is no judgement here
Pursue the light
It is here for you
Waiting for you

Addicted

You invaded my mind
I couldn't concentrate
Work is impossible

I just wanted to hear your voice caress the melody of my name

See your face next to mine
your cheeks against my cheeks

I want to inhale you as my body tingles with anticipation
My hands yearn to touch your soft smooth skin

Yearning even more for your arm to wrap around my waist pulling me in close to you
tightly wedged against your firm body holding me
As my face snuggles against your neck all I can think to do is kiss it
Kiss every available inch

Tasting you gently with my tongue then nibbling on your ear lobes

Momentarily I close my eyes and hold that image in my head
The desire is so strong I can almost taste you
Though you are far away my minds pulls you close to me

 I open my eyes to look around 

The lust that I carry 

Even without you there
It lives deep within me taking over mind, body and soul

Waiting For The Next High

Every song is a love song
Every moment I hear your name
Your face haunts my dreams
Our energies have connected

Then you disappear

But you keep me wanting

Craving you
Inhaling you
Touching you
Wanting every part of you

You're my addiction

Just when the door on my heart starts swinging closed
Damn, here you are again
Got me feeling so exposed
Making high
Giving me what I need to survive

Keeping me addicted
Keeping me at a distance
Warming me up
Then turning ice cold

Where did you go

 Missing you
Then craving you
Turns into hating you
Then needing you

I'm just over here waiting
Waiting for your love
Waiting
Waiting for your touch
Just waiting

Taking a Chance

Protection
Can you protect yourself while enjoying yourself
While protecting yourself from harm
Are you also blocking
Happiness

By controlling your emotions
Are you preventing the experience of
Joy

When you encase your heart in stone
Are you blocking out
Love

As you blind yourself to humanity's numerous views
Are you preventing the possibility of
Peace

Open your heart
Open your mind
Experience
Just experience Life

Experience the Power of Connection
The connection of hearts
The connection of minds
The connection of earthly self to higher self
Your connection with your Source of Existence
Only then will you feel an overwhelming fulfillment of love, peace, joy and happiness 

Just Let The Light In
Absorb it
Let it consume you
Let it lift you into a higher consciousness

The Beautiful Things

Everyday we are faced with negativity, the darkness not only surrounds us, but it resides inside us.

This creates an illusion that speaks to us, causing our minds to lose focus on the beautiful things.

It causes us to forget our purpose.
To bring light into the world.
To display pure unadulterated love, to ourselves and the ones around us.

The things that keep our hearts purified with love are choked out and forgotten, making us feel like a heavy blanket or atmosphere is surrounding our soul, choking out the light that wants to shine within.

You are not alone.
Your light is there waiting for you to consume it and become closer to enlightenment.

Acknowledge and accept that you need help in bringing the light into yourself, while rejecting and pushing the darkness away from you.

Ask your Higher Being to help you, guide you and love you. 
Ask for what you need, and listen to their answers.
They will only do what is best for you.

There is no rejection in their love.

Meditate. It is the only way you can hear the answers your guides are providing for you.
Quiet your mind.
Listen.

Follow your intuition, it is another way your guides are helping you.
Throw away all fear, all hate, all negativity.
Let the light in.
Let love in
Let peace in
Let joy in
Let prosperity in
Let all these beautiful things into your soul.
Watch the blessings come in.

The Warmth of the Heart

It is pure
The release of expectations
The beauty of it brings thoughts
Beautiful thoughts just to adore
In its truly unadulterated form it only gives
With out the need to receive
It only lives
Through your expression
It will not posses you
But only be true to you
Lifting you higher
Higher into the light
Purifying your soul 
So that you may be true to yourself
Only inspiring you to be radiant
Bringing forth your true self
Your true beauty
Inner and outer loveliness
Your perfection
The elegance of your soul
Can only be displayed by you

What if's

Text Message from Alexia: "So when are you going to see him?"
Response text from Iliza: " I don't know..."
Alexia: "Do you want to go?"
Iliza: "Yeah, I do..but I don't...I don't want to set myself up for disappointment."
Alexa: "Yeah, but if you don't you'll always wonder what if"
Iliza: "I know, I know"
Iliza: "Omg he just texted me...ahhh...I feel nervous wth"
Alexa: "Lol, your silly what did it say?"
Iliza: "'I want to see you tonight"'...what should I do?"
Alexia: "I don't know, do what feels right...go and settle things, close some doors"
Several hours later...
Alexia: "Sooooo?"
Iliza: "I went, but I think that'll be the last time?"
Alexia :"Did something happen?"
Iliza: "No, no nothing out of the norm, I'm just over it..."
Alexia: "Oh well I guess you had to go through all of that to finally put it to rest...Wow, how do you feel? No more wondering, now you you can move forward without looking behind, you can close that long chapter of your life and start a new one, no more what if's.."
Iliza: "I feel free I feel freedom..no longer hindered by the past...I'm ready for the future, ready to move forward...
Iliza: "I feel like a new beginning."
Alexia: "Well I'm happy for you."