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“Children should be banned from this place”, Adrianna said as she squeezed past the three year old, with an  armful of dirty dishes, who was climbing in and out of his high chair, right in the middle of the walk way.
“Tell me about it, I can’t believe the parents are just sitting there while their child is clearly in the way, whatever happened to parents actually taking an interest in their children”? Sighed Sarah as she squeezed past the same child behind Adrianna.
As Sarah walks out of the kitchen, she can see a table waving at her frantically, since this is not her table, so she tries to ignore them. She then realizes that her table needs something also, and they are sitting right next to the table that is hysterical and trying to obtain her attention. So reluctantly she walks up to the table to see what they want.
“So do they have to go to the farm and kill the cow for my NY strip?” The man asked, with a smirk on his face that showed he was proud of the joke, he thinks he thought up on his own. “I’ve been waiting here for at least 20 minutes for my steak, what’s taking so long?”
“Actually, here we don’t cook, we just wait for it to fall out of the sky, you know like that movie ‘cloudy with a chance of meatballs,’” Sarah joked with an irresistible giggle.
“I want it well done, burnt if you have to, I don’t want to see any red at all!” he said holding back a laugh.
As she walks away, Arianna is coming to the table with all their food. Thank God she thinks and rolls her eyes, and walks to her table, who politely asks her for lemons for their salmon. She hurries back and grabs the lemons and rushes them out to her table. As she walks back by the other table that flagged down before, the man grabs her arm firmly, too firmly, and pulls her into the table. She looks at the other guest for their reaction, but they are all just staring at her like she did something wrong.
“This steak is disgusting!” the man yells at her, “there is no flavor whatsoever in this steak, are you stupid or something, serving garbage like this to people?”
Adrianna sees what is going and runs over to the table.
“Sir, let go of her arm please, I’m your server not her, what is the problem?” Adrianna asks firmly.
He reaches out to then grab her arm and she instinctively snatches away and says “please do not touch me, just tell me what the problem is.”
“This steak is disgusting, I don’t like it.”
“You ordered it well done; I’m confused on what it is you want.”
When the man has couldn’t think of a valid response, she walks away.
As Sarah walks away she can feel the tears well up and she runs in the kitchen, as everyone asks, she tells them what happened.
As soon as she finishes Adrianna walks in, and comforts Sarah and tells her not to let that lunatic get to her.
The manager then goes to the table asks them to pay and leave without ever returning.

loss of a child

Oh what a battle to get you away from Seattle

He holds you closely and looks at me coldly

If he would just let me near to my dear

So consumed in hatred which makes him feel naked so he holds her down with his thumb

Hoping and praying she remains dumb

Breathe and let it be spring

Bring her back to her mum

His thievery this evening has left us all wheezing and crying to the heavens above

So the angels came flying so I would stop dying

And promised better times ahead

I cannot see it so you should just beat it

I already feel like I’m dead

As I felt hurt they felt burnt and left me for dead

I can’t reach my goal with this whole in my soul

Instead of turning to you for guidance I continue to walk in silence

Letting the burden of pain slowly make me insane

No longer able to see what he has done to me

You again hold out your hand

Unable to stand I take your hand and you pull me to my feet

Giving me spiritual food to eat

For my starvation has abound

Without making a sound

You tell me forgiveness is the key

To set yourself free forgiveness is what you need come take it from my hand

As I take it from his hand on my feet I shall land

I realize I can now breathe

I have been set free from the pain that made me so insane

I pray that you will do the same

Yoga

surrounded by warmth as you cradle me through
I breathe in your love
I devour your comfort as you so unselfishly extend to me in your hand
Your energy comes and swallows me as I move my arms above my head
You stretch my lungs as I breathe in the light push my stomach in as I breathe out the darkness
You caress my back muscles as I relax like a cow and hiss like a cat
You pull my bottom up and back as I bow down like a dog
open the hamstrings stretch them back pull my heals down to the ground making me feel solid against the earth
I can feel the rich soil under my feet soothing them
I can see and smell the jasmine growing up around them
grounding them
as the jasmine grows the scent relaxes me sending me deeper into the pose relaxing and stretching first my lower back
then it ascends slowly up each vertebrae stretching releasing
relieving
I have entered the world of meditation and my mind is unwilling to leave
I am surrounded
the beautiful flowers the lush grass the hot spring asking me to enter has completely enveloped me
the purifying light has surrounded me filling me with love and wisdom
guiding me as I stand like a mountain I then salute you my beautiful sun as you shine brightly upon my face giving me radiance giving glowing warmth
I lift my arms to welcome you then bow down to show my love for you
as I step my foot back I show you that I will become a warrior for you as you give me strength and make me firm
I then sit easily and ask for what I need I tell you all the love I will spread
I intend to make someone happy  and I will give them the light that you so graciously bestowed upon me and they will come to you
then they will spread the light and we will be the light
I bow to you graciously lovingly
Namaste

theft of a broken heart

stolen right from under me
even when I tried to hold back
you took my love from me stole my heart right out of my chest
I never said you could have it but then I don't know if I want it back
I like the way it feels when you gently hold it
but I'm afraid you might drop it so give it back!
I want it to be safe within my realms
I keep running from you and you pull me back
I love it when you love me but I'm afraid of the pain when it ends
you will never understand this you will never know
you don't know the shoes I've walked in nor the weight of my burdens
but i know you love me and how hard you try to get me too see it
but my eyes stay wide shut
Instead of accepting your love unconditionally I see the flaws as proof of your intent to leave
you can't understand because I don't understand
how do I get past this how do I let you have my love unconditionally
will you tell me everyday that you love me
that you never want me to leave
will you bring me into your arms and hold me so that I will be forever safe
will you steal my heart and lock it away and make sure it doesn't break
what will it take
for you too make sure my heart doesn't break
go back to the beginning
to heal the wound that causes the pain
you see I must let go of the past
you see there isn't just one wound but several
and instead of healing they are all still bleeding
why have they taken so long to heal why are they allowed to continue to cause pain
he stole it when it was innocent and vulnerable before the walls were built
the original cause of pain
to break free of pain is to break free of him
and take back what he so wickedly stole away
only then can you have it only then can I give it to you
I have stolen back my broken heart
take it give it life keep it safe cherish it
then I won't need the everyday I love you's
and I won't be afraid to give you me unconditionally

Healing

Sometimes the skies are blue

as blue as me

the waves are continuous

as the continuous waves meet with my continuous tears

my anger builds

the anger keeps building redder and redder

with the sun

as it rises

the grass will still grow

and the forgiveness will flow

straight from my soul

my heart you stole

you put it on the coal and left it there

this is rare the part where you left it there

sometimes the moon is white

a white light in the darkness

you had a light

a light that could not be trusted a light that would not last all night

your light diminished

the moon is still not finished

being the white light

in the darkness

the stars

 I thought were ours

but mars was only ours the rest you left

until the death

of the stars that could have been ours

you left

descending

descending while mending

the clouds cushion the fall while bending the pain

for it is insane

the pain

down, down, down

the blue blue sky

the hot red sun

the soft healing clouds

the deep blue sea

healing

I'm Sorry

What do I say
As I rip your heart out and make a souffle
What do I say
As you bear the pain as it makes you insane
What do I say
You bear the pain that I bore dutifully as I stood by your side and cried
Silently deeply painfully sometimes I died
Now you stand there and look into my eyes
I see the pain you bear
Your pain digs deep and becomes my pain
I want the pain to stop for you so I lick your wounds in turn healing my own
I took a piece of you with me a piece of your heart
I could no longer bear to look at you so i turned and walked away
I couldn't think of what to say
To take the pain away
I could have said I'm sorry but that's just too cliche
As your brown eyes looked into mine I didn't know what to say so I just turned and walked away

feathers

My skin never seemed so soft until you touched it
Your fingers are like feathers falling along my body
Trying not to melt away into you
Trying not to love every sensation
Trying to pull away
No I just can't
My breath never became so shallow until i felt your breath 

Like feathers upon my neck
Looking into you is staring into the ocean so deep so dark
A sea of hidden pain hidden emotion
Let the wind take it away let it go
Float back to me light as a feather
Touch me breathe touch me
Burning desire engulfs me
Cooling me down with your eyes you kiss me a sweet kiss goodbye